I'm getting butterfly as the day gets closer with the RSVP for the wedding. Didn't hear from anyone yet from my family but my cousin , aunt bev  aunt beth and my mom. Its pretty sad that my own sister isn't coming , so that's what my mom said.Everyone is at me with everything because I wont talk to her.Well if they are so perfect and  grown up that they say then she can come to me. Everyone tells me "life is to short", well start telling that to everyone else! I'm going to lose a lot of respect for my family who ever doesn't come... I lost respect along time ago with my sister when she told me she don't want to be in the wedding cause i didn't give my mom rent.... Like are you kidding me... that is not an excuse. I was trying to do the right thing of having my sister in it cause i only have one.... but i guess my best friend is the maid of honor, thank god i have her! I still never heard anything from my dad either which I'm getting very nerves about.If i don't hear anything by the 21 then i have to start calling and i really don't want to hear that negative saying i cant make it. That's the only reason why I'm having this kind of wedding . I want to walk down the isle with my dad for him to give me away, if he doesn't come i have no clue what to do.Yes i am a daddy's girl too.

Pretty soon we are going to go get our hair done well practice to see if it looks right.I still have to make an appointment to get my dress fitted lol they always say get it fitted within 2 month before your wedding not me... I think its pointless what if i lost weight or gained i would have to pay for them to do it again and I'm not doing that.I really can not what till this wedding it over with, to much stress. I hope everything gets better after the 21 of april sigh..

Other than everything about the wedding everything is fine. Just had a housewarming party sunday. It was nice seeing everyone instead of the wall lol.Feels good to have a party in your own house and hosting it. Its so much better living out on your own so you dont have to worry about people getting on your back for stupid shit.. The most exciting part is that my best friend courtney is dating one of my ex.. its w.e doesn't bother me anymore but bother my finance dan. Now we are sitting in the same room together and its the best that everyone is getting along.

Getting things done

Yesterday was the day we got our marriage license.So happy until we found out that dan check wasn't in his account , it was in the mail!!!!Thank god his mom had money on her so that we could get it.I felt like we had so much to do but we really didn't.Dan had to go get his tux fitted but ended up not going. Such a crappy day yesterday, plus i didn't feel good at all.The good thing about that day was one of my friends that's in my wedding got her dress and told me that all the dresses are in... I was so happy that it came early.

Today is the most busy day of all. We are getting ready for our housewarming party for tomorrow. So excited!! Dan went to go get his tux fitted today  and put a down payment on it. I'm stuck at home cleaning which he was suppose to help me with.. Never works out as plan. Running around to do today with cleaning, making brownies, shower, getting food for the BBQ, giving the kids a bath and trying to find something nice to wear since its going to be so nice on Sunday!! It feels good to have a little get together in your own apartment.Well that's all for now got to get thing done around here!:)

Plan Plan Plan... Spend Spend Spend

The celebration of Dan and I getting married is coming up soon. I can not believe its almost here  and actually going as planed. I'm a little nerves I have no clue why. We been living with each other for a couple years now and have kids, we are basically like a married couple but just doesn't have it down on paper.I guess its because I had so many dates for this wedding and I kept changing it cause everyone was just letting me down every time. No one wanted to talk to me about the wedding so I just blew it off , but it just kept on bugging me over and over again so I just changed the date. This time I was so fed up! I'm going to have this wedding if people like it or not. Of course it was drama with everything even though it was never my fault.

After all of that everything was coming together. Went to davids bridal with joan ( mother-in-law) michelle (dans cousin) and lorie ( dans aunt) to try on dresses. Looking around the store thinking to myself I'm never going to find a dress that I like. After 4 dresses I found the one. You always know what that "one" is, the feeling it makes you feel in it and you just want to cry.I was so excited that I was walking out there with a dress that I wanted. Then we started looking at caters, djs, flowers, cakes, etc. A couple weeks later we had an apointment with the cater to go over something about the menu and prices.He was very helpful with the prices and everything so we are going with him. Next was a DJ, my aunt told me about him. We are just waiting for the money to put a down payment. Then we found out that giant the food market does wedding cakes and flowers! cheaper then any other place.People can look or think whatever because I'm getting a cake at a food market.... A cake is a cake who cares? They have the same skills as a bakery does. Now I'm just trying to find songs for cutting the cake, walking in bridal party and bouquet toss. So confused!

Tomorrow is the day we get our married license. I can't wait to have that in writing! After that the guys are going to try on their tuxes, hope everything goes well with it. I'm still waiting on the 2 bridal dresses, so far I got one.Kind of getting nerves about it :/ I feel like I have so much to do in so little time.. I'm still not finished with the center pieces , still have to get my shoes so i can get my dress fitted. Dan's cousin is going to pay for my hair to get done for the wedding. Don't know what to do with my hair hopefully they know whats best cause my hair is a little short. Then this weekend we might be going up to the mall to find a bridal crown dan's aunt is buying that for me too.Its crazy on how much they do for me and its not my blood family.

44 DAY TILL MY WEDDING DAY!!!!!! <3

Life time

Growing up can be the most exciting or nerve racking to some people.I lived my whole life in New Jersey, friends, schools, the best hang out spots, and memories. My life ended when my parents slit up and my mom told me that we were moving to Philadelphia. I didn't know what to think, I was moving up their with no friends, new school, new neighborhood and on top of that was within a week I was going to summer classes at Saul high school. First day of school I was still lost watching everyone talking to their friends asking which class they have or together. I was so scared I didn't know what to do. High school was so different than middle school, it was all about trying to be popular or out beat the other. Lot of people looked at me weird cause I was from Jersey.




Its crazy how when we grow up and look back dis liking that person that you didn't even get a chance to even talk to because they were in the popular group and think they were better than everyone else. Now that they are grown up with kids, married, in college, or just bettering them self you realize how they are not that different from you. I made different kinds of friends, mothers to be, fathers to be, married couples, people that already have kids.I not alone in this world that was young and had kids so they know what we been through.


My life has changed so much dropping out of high school, going back to school got my high school diploma, working, meeting the love of my life in a pizza shop, having 2 kids, got our own place and now getting married!! We been through so much together our up and downs.Having to kids at such a young age was scary cause you don't know if they will ever leave you or just be a dead beat dad. Which I see a lot of now and days. I'm so happy that I get to marry that one person that I had kids with and specially get accepted by his family.Everyone loves me thank god! They are so helpful with the whole wedding that I will be having in 46 days!!!!! So nerves by the way.Still have a lot to do in so little time, just mostly have to put down - down payments with everything. Well the kids are finally asleep going to get some peace and quiet before they wake up again and do it all over again. Nighty night