I'm getting butterfly as the day gets closer with the RSVP for the wedding. Didn't hear from anyone yet from my family but my cousin , aunt bev  aunt beth and my mom. Its pretty sad that my own sister isn't coming , so that's what my mom said.Everyone is at me with everything because I wont talk to her.Well if they are so perfect and  grown up that they say then she can come to me. Everyone tells me "life is to short", well start telling that to everyone else! I'm going to lose a lot of respect for my family who ever doesn't come... I lost respect along time ago with my sister when she told me she don't want to be in the wedding cause i didn't give my mom rent.... Like are you kidding me... that is not an excuse. I was trying to do the right thing of having my sister in it cause i only have one.... but i guess my best friend is the maid of honor, thank god i have her! I still never heard anything from my dad either which I'm getting very nerves about.If i don't hear anything by the 21 then i have to start calling and i really don't want to hear that negative saying i cant make it. That's the only reason why I'm having this kind of wedding . I want to walk down the isle with my dad for him to give me away, if he doesn't come i have no clue what to do.Yes i am a daddy's girl too.

Pretty soon we are going to go get our hair done well practice to see if it looks right.I still have to make an appointment to get my dress fitted lol they always say get it fitted within 2 month before your wedding not me... I think its pointless what if i lost weight or gained i would have to pay for them to do it again and I'm not doing that.I really can not what till this wedding it over with, to much stress. I hope everything gets better after the 21 of april sigh..

Other than everything about the wedding everything is fine. Just had a housewarming party sunday. It was nice seeing everyone instead of the wall lol.Feels good to have a party in your own house and hosting it. Its so much better living out on your own so you dont have to worry about people getting on your back for stupid shit.. The most exciting part is that my best friend courtney is dating one of my ex.. its w.e doesn't bother me anymore but bother my finance dan. Now we are sitting in the same room together and its the best that everyone is getting along.